attraction

[iron_and_silver]

for those of you who read my LJ and dont know, im mexican. i was born here, as were my parents. however, not all of my grandparents were.

My parents had to learn english as children. they had such horrible experiences in the 50's learning english, that when me and my brother were born, they decided to teach us english.

My parents raised me and my brother up in a mostly white neighborhood. we went to mostly white schools. however, as children we went to a church in the mexican part of town. basically everyone could speak spanish there and the sermons were in spanish. me and my bro hated it. we never really fit in there. the kids there would tease us because we were "too white." we couldnt speak spanish, had no accent and lived in a nice house. it got so bad that one of the kids actually hit my head up against the side of the church wall.

so we left there and started going to a much more closer white church. the kids were tons more nicer. me and my bro felt alot more comfortable. but me and my bro never fully dug the church scene. it was just never our thing.

Even now, when my mom takes us to visit my grandmother in the northside of Ft.Worth (the predominately mexican part of ft.worth) and we stop to eat at a local mexican restaurant, we get stares. I mean sure they see the brown skin and the dark hair but they hear our voices and see our clothes. Many many times we have been overcharged and have been treated like we have some bad disease.

Now the only time i have been treated badly by a white person..was 2nd grade. there was this kid named Danny Bock. haha ill never ever forget his name. and he would call me chocolate lady. he was a real big bully. i told him he should eat me haha. later we got into a fight and that was the only time i ever got sent to the office:-)

So those were a brief background of how i grew up.

As far as attraction, Ive only been attracted to 1 hispanic boy my entire life LOL. his name was elliot sanchez. and that was in 5th grade.

Every other boy has been white. and has had a great sense of humor.

I do not wish to ever be with a mexican man. I see the way my father has been, relatives and everything. No. Now, im not saying all hispanic men are evil or bad or anything like that. There are tons out there who defy the stereotypical hispanic male. I however, simply do not wish to date a hispanic man.

Im also not against african american men, asian men, native american men, arabian men, or any other nationality.

But, white men are what im usually very attracted too. and of course, ones with a killer sense of humor.

So thats me:-)

haha. any questions?

Comments

[cocytusxx.livejournal.com]

your default picture is so fucking mega

[iron_and_silver]

mega...? cool? bad? lol.
and either way..thanx:-)

[cocytusxx.livejournal.com]

mega as in fuckin' badass


you're welcome!

[iron_and_silver]

haha thanx. ive never heard that before..i feel old now haha j/k

i like your icon. it makes me miss my long hair. im febe, by the way:-)

[cocytusxx.livejournal.com]

thanks; i think it's the only picture of myself that i like...


i'm sarah!

[iron_and_silver]

i know how you feel. these pictures in my icon are the only ones i like of myself haha.

ooh you like billie holiday!

[moredarker.livejournal.com]

yeah, i like them white boys too. :)

[iron_and_silver]

oh yes haha

[sogentlywego.livejournal.com]

and he would call me chocolate lady. he was a real big bully. i told him he should eat me haha

Ha, ha, that left me rolling on the floor.

[iron_and_silver]

hahahaha im glad! when i told him that..he got a confused look on his face..and then there was silence. i swear it was cuz my grin was so
bright:-) haha

[voicelessloud.livejournal.com]

youre mexican???
ewwwwww, i need to take you off my friends list now.
hehehe :)

[iron_and_silver]

lol

[kestrelderyn.livejournal.com]

Right now I live just outside (as in a mile or two) the Northside area you are talking about. I used to live a little more in that area. It was a little strange being practically the only white girl there.

When I was in the 6th grade, I went to a school where I was one of a handful of white students in a school full of black kids. I don't care what anyone says, it is very strange and sometimes uncomfortable simply because you get LOTS of stares and everyone else listens to rap music or R&B or whatever and you don't.

However, I went to high school in Azle (no one knows where Azle is!!) where there were TWO black kids in the high school the entire 4 years I was there, and maybe about a dozen hispanic kids. I'm not sure why, but people always think that I'm part white, part Asian and part mexican (usually I get asked if I'm part Chinese or Japanese). I didn't mind being asked that, I always liked that I looked not completely white, but it was somewhat strange to me that SO many people would ask me my nationality and assume that my culture was different and that maybe I even knew some lanugage other than English.

My family is Chickasaw and Choctaw Indian (on my dad's side, there is a little indian on mom's side, I think. . .but we still have some full-blooded indian relatives on dad's side) and so I guess that's why I look "different." Haha.

[iron_and_silver]

oh wow. i can only imagine how strange it must have been growing up there. i can just imagine the stares. yikes.

yeah i can see now why people would think you are other than white. and wow. the only indian blood i have in me is on my dads side. my great grandmother was mexican indian. she was from some tribe in mexico. i wanna say aztec but im not entirely sure. somewhere within that region.

but its funny. the mexican people assume im mexican. but a large amount of white people i met think im only half mexican. the older i get the more i get that for some reason haha.

[racecar.livejournal.com]

oh man, that stinks. it's got to be hard growing up like that.
once someone called me a "drunk mick" as an insult. now, yes, i am irish. my friends calling me a drunk mick, which they don't even do that often, is really funny because i don't drink. but this kid had a problem with me and said something along the lines, 'why don't you shut the fuck up, you drunk mick!' and my response was, 'do people seriously still say that?' and then he left. hahahahahahaha..

[iron_and_silver]

ah well. its life you know. you gotta roll with the punches.

i cant believe he said that! besides being a vulgar term to call someone of irish descent, its also reaaallllly out of date. did he have a handlebar mustasche as well? hehe

[racecar.livejournal.com]

no, no handlebar mustache. ;)

[asweetgirl.livejournal.com]

I grew up in a Hispanic community and the town was primarily made up of Hispanic people. I didn't go to the school where most people lived up to their stereotypes though. Usually, Hispanic males tend to be more dominant and expect women to be submissive in all aspects. They're also harsh, cruel, a bit cynical, and their humor is more like satire or sarcasm. Well, there were guys like that, but I avoided them. They were the "outcasts" in our school. Most of the guys I hung out with were actually more "white" than anything. So I am attracted to Hispanic males, but I don't like Hispanic males who live up to their stereotype. I mean, it's one thing that they can't do something and they try to improve as much as they can. But it's another thing to make fun of what they can't do because soon they make fun of others and may discourage others. I know, this was my observation. That's their humor. A twist on the English language, a twist on your weaknesses, and a major twist on your strengths, is what their humor constitutes of and it may be somewhat bothersome.

I don't feel comfortable talking to guys who are too Hispanic...I mean with the accent, the mustache, the lack of English verbal and written skills. I don't understand their jokes sometimes and feel left out in the blue. I went to visit some family in Mexico, the men kept on making jokes about me that were not hurtful, but only because I didn't understand what they said. I just modestly laughed. I'm not down with their slang yet.