iron_and_silver: (Marilyn)
Mysterious F ([personal profile] iron_and_silver) wrote2001-09-18 10:06 pm

call it some form of fate?

damnit.

i didnt go. why?

1)at 7ish it was raining so hard. we were in the middle of a severe thunderstorm. i decided to take a short nap.

2)woke up at 9. then my mother proceeds to lecture me on how much she didnt want me to go. Saying "99.9% of the people want to go to war. how can u protest?"

She can't understand how I can go against the grain. She can't understand how I can stand up for my beliefs. She can't understand how I can not care what people think of me, when she relys so heavily on other people for her own validation.

She can't understand how awful and misplaced I feel because I did not obey my soul.

My soul will not go unsatisfied for long.