Frustration

[iron_and_silver]

I know 2 brians.

boyfriend brian
great friend brian.

So today My Brian didn't come on at 10am like he said. i went to bed at 6, forced myself to get up at 10 cuz i'd kick myself if i missed him.

One thing i've learned about my brian is what he says and what he does don't always match. It either takes him a hell of a time doing them or he dosent do them at all. He gets distracted easily (i can relate, one of the many reasons we can carry a conversation together). So i wasn't surprised, but dissapointed. We won't talk til sunday or monday. .sigh.

It has been over a week since i've talked to my friend brian. turns out, his bro blocked all his friends. So when we did talk finally, we both were jumping up and down to chat. i wanted to call him. Weve talked on the phone a couple of times. One time, i was supposed to call him but i got the jitters and felt guilty so i didnt. Since then, he has refused to even concider being on the phone with me. grrr. Why the change??

Well we got into a tiff and we stopped talking for who knows when. I hate when people avoid or ignore me.

Why do people have to annoy me and make life difficult for me??!!?!?! Can't they just do wot i ask? pleassee:-)

On a brighter side, i finally called my best friend, christina. She was never mad at me. She was so happy to hear from me. She dosen't know how mad she made me and she never will:-)

Her new roomate is the guy i talked about in an earlier journal entry. Oh yeah, this will not turn out good. he wanted her to spend the night at his house. Oh yeah, he isnt going to be anything but a splinter in my foot that i can't get out. I just don't get good vibes from him. I see all these red flags.

my vibes are never wrong. .sigh.

Christina sad she would be more than happy to go see incubus with me:-) yay.

I also got a new pillow! ahhhh..so so so so so nice and heavenly.

Anyways, i must go.