so here it goes

[iron_and_silver]

i did this a while back and it worked nicely.



I will never sit on a toilet seat while its flushing. i know realistically i wont get sucked in but..i still fear that and the thought of something (bugs or animals) popping up sitting there..

I hate rollercoasters but i adore having the shit scared out of me during a movie. and i love love love the gore.

I will have 4 tattoos by the time im 30. no more body modification after that.

I love my face and skin. my body fascinates me. I like to hear myself breathe. and i love the idea how we can just move our muscles w/o hardly thinking about it. We just expect everything to move at our will.

I love to listen to people talk. Accents, slang, intrigue me.

I love seeing brad pitt in pain in movies. No other actor quite moves me like him.

I can't stand overly nice or fake people. They give me headaches. I can detect fakeness very well. I love for people to be comfortable with me.

I believe everyone has a dark side. the one that sometimes comes out when you are all alone..

I really love silence. especially at night. when it feels like the world is dead and i feel like im the sole survior of everything.

I really trust my instincts. but i dont always listen to them. i try though. its gotten easier as i get older.

I have alot of "issues" when it comes to my relationship with the opposite sex. Alot of it has to do with my dad. Its mostly trust issues. im terribly afraid to be let down. its so important for promises to be fulfilled. but ive come a long way the past couple of years. daniel has got the best version of febe to date:-)

i sleep horribly. I always toss and turn every night and will wake up several times during the night. i hog covers too hehe

I hate asian food. but i dig fortune cookies.

Panchos is one of my fav mexican places haha

I try and take very good care of my feet.

My dogs are very important to me. I always try to show them that i care.

I used to tell all my friends that id be the last one to get married out of all of us. and it came true. after next year, ill be the last unmarried girl out of my old circle of friends.

I love to see daniel in chucks. its so fucking sexy. and the way his jeans are frayed at the end. mmm. Hes got beautiful skin and his lips tastes like cherries. to quote kerouac.."all the more to kiss them and suck their juices out."

The first thing that attracted me to daniel was his general strangeness. I love the way he told stories..and his jacket.

I want my future children to have unusual names.

I have a deep love of stripped socks.

I also crave almost anything with the moon or stars on it.

I spent alot of my early childhood summers laying on my back..reading a book. my mom would take us to the library every 2 weeks..it was great.

me and my brother used to camp out during summer in the backyard. me and him would pitch the tent and talk and laugh under the stars. we felt like we were world away from the house.

when i was 7? i ran away to my closet because my mom had hurt my feelings. i even wrote a goodbye note. but she heard me giggling in the closet and found me..

After the december incident, (check my memories section for the infamous father entry to read what that was..)the mere sight of my father would cause me to have horrible panic attacks and intense crying fits. almost a year after it happened my mother took me and my bro to see where he was living. and she started to drive away and my dad jokingly started running after us..i lost my mind for like 10min. i thought he was chasing after me. I thought he was coming to harm me..i lost all control of reality. it was the most strangest experience.

Its weird to think about things with him. the biggest question that ill always have (because he will never truly answer it) why me? like..how can my father do that to me? Fathers are supposed to protect and love. the one man who is never supposed to not harm me. but i realize now that not all men are destined to hurt me.

i put together my first book when i was 6 or 7. it was a collection of my drawings. and i used the tops of old boxes for the covers and i stapled it all together and gave it to my mother. she still has it.

I dont really get along with girls very well. Thats not to say i dont have female friends or anything. I do and i adore my female friends. but cliche females really bother the hell out of me. I dont like to only discuss boyfriends, clothes and makeup. Talk to me about a good book or a great band..or kickass new movie. or politics.

my walls are filled with beatle posters. they are one of 2 artists that will make me squeal like a teenager and bawl if i ever met any of them. the other artist is michael jackson.

I sleep with 3 pillows and 3 blankets right now. my head only rests on 2 pillows. the 3rd pillow became a substitute long ago for my security blanket. haha. that was such hell giving that thing up.

well. thats all i can think of for now. feel free to comment with any other random facts you'd like to know:-)