periods are evil

i always feel most insecure during it. i dunno.

but im generally in an ok mood.

brought sogentlywego home. it was a nice drive and nice to have company on the drive to ft.worth.

im not a big fan of this week. im really not.

i just cant wait for school to be over and done with. and to have a job in denton and be living on my own. mostly i cant wait to see daniel this weekend. i miss him most during insignificant moments. like when i have messy hair or when something reminds me of something funny he'd said.

i applied at hot topic and sam goody yesterday. we'll see.

im also trying gadzooks too.

bah. ok. its time for me to work on poetry revisions!

yay

newly edited poem.

As fresh skin
There is always a chill/ when listening to anything by John Lennon/ because it always reminds me of the death/ of him/ my long farewell/ to innocence.
18 and inside Louisiana/ like a raw emerald/ in a forgotten mine/ J had a way of giving shelter/ to unstable tobacco/ the kind to threaten suicide/ from the fatness of his over ripe lips/ an unforgettable beauty/ when wearing dying jeans/ sweet saliva/ like the first time you tasted rain/ as a child.

I’ll never forget how blue the air was.

I wanted to feel the act of empty creation/ he wanted to feel the texture of my skin/ to prove my existence/ within our small hours/ he left minor fingerprints/ on segments of skin/ having a tendency to shed/ flakes of days descending/ like dead leaves/ soon to be reborn/ as fresh skin.

heartbreak

i love sad songs. i really do. im not a very sad type of girl but damnit. i love hearing songs about pain.

my current fav sad song is: the white stripes cover of "i just dont know what to do with myself"


mmmmmmm white stripes. mm mmm mmm. jack and meg should copulate. mmmm yes.

ok. name some of the best sad songs.

haha. i made a telemarketer dude giggle

him: are you the homeowner?
me: no..what is this inregards to?
him: (insert lame product)
me: uh..he just stepped out
him: (giggle) i would have said that too..allright thanx. bye.

HAHAHA thats so amusing.