hahaha

so um. yeah so im pmsing.

but last night it was more than that. I was tired and stressed out over my damn checkbook.

and then i really cant stand when people yell at me when they are angry. I try and not to yell and they should do the same.

blah. everything upon everything bothered me last night.

holy fuck. my best friend is getting married haha. omg.

its still sinking in.

well work time. 12:30-6.

have i told you ive time traveled?

so me and my mom made up and settled our differences. cool cool.

so tonight i decide after dinner that i wanna start seeing one of my movies that i got from the library.

so i pop in easy rider. heaaaven.

im watching it and this cool song is playing in the background of the scene and the singer says "God damn"

and my dad basically comes running in screaming that i better turn the filthy movie off.

oy vey.

I go and grab my mom and shes all "wot the hell? Its a damn movie!" hahaha.

and:

Him: I pay for that TV!
me: no. mom did with her money.
Him: I payed for the VCR!
me: no. again, mom did with her money.
Him: I pay for the cable!
me: im not using your cable.
Him: WELL i pay for the electricity!!! and this is a christian home and i wont allow that filth to be in this house!!

wooooootever. First off, one of his fav movies is Unforgiven, and (at least according to my mom) it has "vulgar" language in it. and he never objected.

Oh man. All he kept screaming about was "the filth" this and "the filth" that.

and hes regressing. He used to control almost everything this family did before he left in dec. '98. Since hes been gone for 4 years, we all started learning wot its like to really live. and now that hes back, he wants to start the controlling. Telling us wot to watch, wot to listen to, and eventually who to talk to.

the only filth in this house is him. He makes everything dirty.

In the 4 years he was gone, this house was cleaner than it ever has been.

and now we're back to dirt.